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Camp NaNoWriMo reboot

Yes, it’s Camp NaNoWriMo time for April and I’m getting back into writing!

Wait a minute… *pulls out spreadsheet* there is no “going back to” because I did write!

I wrote 10290 words in March! That may not be much for some people but it’s still nothing to sneeze on. Especially with all the other stuff that is going on daily in my life.

I can only recommend to keep a spreadsheet or a page in a notebook to write down what you do for your craft every day.It may be a sheet full of plotting and ideas, a blog post, or a page of glittering dialogue — all of it counts. Even that sketch for the cover or the character you would love to see one day, it counts. I named my spreadsheet “Creativity” and I’m putting everything in there.

It’s important to encourage ourselves. Too easily we forget what we did and how much we do every day. It all counts.


Still here, still writing

Hello friends.

Can you believe it’s already Februar? Can you believe that it’s almost March? I feel like I’m desperately running after everything this year. I need everything and everyone to stop for a week to give me a chance to catch up.

I’m still writing. Not as much as I want, on many days I’m not even hitting my 960 words that lend themselves to the title of this blog and my tumblr back in the day. But I am writing and I really don’t want to beat myself up anymore over not meeting a goal that was arbitrary anyway.

Currently I’m trying to tie up and finish a few WIPs, original fiction and fanfiction. I have not forgotten Tempting The Dragon, I’m just… I’m a bit hesitant with it because it has developed in some White Saviour trope and we don’t want that, do we? See, that’s the problem if you post in-progress stories, you end up with a mess in your head as you try to balance it all out before you publish the next chapter.

Another thing that I’m kind of working on is a self-taught-writer-workshop. I’ve looked at many online classes and writer workshops but I can’t really afford them. But I’m thinking of setting up a writing workshop with the free resources I know about and putting it all together on a server on Discord. A weekly schedule, homework and discussions about videos we all watched or blog posts we’ve read. I’m still working on that and will make an announcement when I have something.

So that’s it for me for now.

Little reminder: you can still read an erotic romance story with a lady alien with a tail and her human boyfriend trying to have sex in Zero G by yours truly in this book

See you again soon and keep on writing.

To process

I said I wouldn’t do a New Years Resolution post but then I read The First (?) 2017 Process Blog by Kristine Kathryn Rusch and I thought “maybe I don’t need resolutions but I think I need a list of things that should be part of the process for the days to come”.

Here is my list so far:

  • Stay healthy, stay alive. If the past year has taught me anything, it’s that that is not an easy task in of itself
  • Be a loud and unapologetic woman like Carrie Fisher (I already miss her so much)
  • Read the books that I started or will start, all the way to the end. I have this bad habit to start books and never finish them even when I like them
  • Write every day for an hour. I thought about setting a goal of ten minutes first but no, an hour, I have a fucking hour in my day for doing something that I love, for fucks sake
  • Finish the various writing WIPs that deserve to get done
  • Publish novel. Just get it done.
  • Organize my days, declutter my life
  • Sports. Gods, I hate sports but looking at the point up there about staying healthy — that means losing weight and building some muscles

So this is The List. My list. What will your 2017 list be like?

Where did the time go?


And suddenly it was Christmas.

I hope you all had a few quiet days and had some of your wishes come true. The year is coming to an end and this is the time where we all look back and reflect on the year and what we accomplished and what we didn’t accomplish.

I never liked looking back and I don’t have time for that anyway. Here’s my promise for the next year:

I will write more, I will learn more, I will grow more.

I wish you all a good end to this year and a great start into the next one. Let’s all work on making 2017 a good year for all of us.



That point

“Is it just me?”

“Is it just me who feels like XYZ?”

I ask myself these kind of questions several times during the week and since I’m old and have lived through the birth and rise of the Internet let me tell you how lucky you are, younglings!

Because today, you ask yourself “is it only me?” and go on the internet and find out: “no, it’s not only you”.

I don’t know why it is such a relief to know that somewhere out there is someone or are several someones who feel just like me. But it is a relief.

This was actually supposed to be a post about writing, about that point in writing when you realize that the project keeps getting bigger than what you know, where you have to push up your sleeves and get to work, where it’s not just letting the characters talk and see what happens. Where it’s actually about writing work.

But with all the tragedies in the last few days, my thoughts gravitate towards grief and fear and anger and disappointment. So I turn to the internet to see that I’m not alone in these feelings and I’m here to say: I feel like it too and I don’t know what to do.

Sending love to all my friends and to all LGBTIA people. I’m so sorry.


May, may you please let up?

May ran over me like a steam roller. Two weekends of handball tournaments to help at, work exploding and the flu going around — I feel like I need all of June to catch up on sleep after this month.

But things keep going. The next chapter of Tempting The Dragon is mostly done but it feels a bit boring so I’m reworking it. I’m also writing a fairytale rewrite for an anthology by tumblr writers (I love using the word anthology, it makes it sound so super official and serious! I’m a real writer now, I’m writing for an anthology!) And there’s lots of other projects that I keep working on (the fanfic writer guilt is strong in this one), I just need to structure my time better to get everything done.

Yesterday was my birthday, I have reached level 47 now. Apart from the various creaking joints, I’m feeling pretty good and I love who I am now. Sometimes I even call myself a writer and I feel really good about that.

Whoops, restart.

Apparently, January is a already part of the new year. Who would have thought?

Just kidding, I am aware that the first month of the year is already over and I’m mostly bitter because I didn’t accomplish any of my writing goals. I still have not found a steady routine and I’m afraid I may have to sacrifice my lazy mornings of coffee, corn flakes and tumblr.

But the goal for this year is to write at least one book from draft to ebook file. My plan is to document this process here, maybe even together with other people as I always wanted this blog to be a group project. I will blog here once a week, probably Thursday (I work Monday, Wednesday and Friday and Tuesday is Cleaning Day, that leaves Thursday for Blogging Day).

It’s a date then, see you next Thursday for writing this novel. Step one will be outlining.  (I hate outlining so much)

For today I leave you with this post by Veronica Rossi on Tor:

If you stick to a plan, you can write a solid draft of a book in a year. Really.

Having written several novels now, my focus as a writer has shifted. I know I can create books so my 2016 writing goals are about digging deeper. And though they’re writing-oriented I think a few might be helpful to anyone pursuing a creative endeavor. Without further ado, here they are:

  1. Answer the “Why” — My husband recently read Start With the Why by Simon Sinek, based on his TED Talk of the same title. Though I’ve only seen the latter, we’ve been having many discussions about the central tenet of Sinek’s argument. Though it’s primarily geared toward business-minded folks, Sinek poses a question that he believes everyone should consider: What’s your Why? Why do you do what you do? In my case: why do I write?I honestly thought it would be an easier question to answer. After all, I’ve been writing seriously for a dozen years now and I love writing. However to truly answer that question requires some honest soul-searching.

What happened here?

toothless judging
Toothless is judging me

I know this blog looks abandoned. I swear it is not but I can’t deny the lack of posts here.

I manage to keep the tumblr blog active, I hang out on tumblr anyway and it’s easy for me to build up a queue on there and collect advice and prompts. It’s not really a blog it’s more a collection of writing advice and inspirational posts and quotes. I love collecting, I collect links and smart words like other people collect stamps I guess.

On this blog I feel like I should write something original myself and I don’t know what. What could I write that has not been written better somewhere else? (Yes, I know that’s a stupid excuse)


Concentration, that would be something… I still haven’t found a rhythm to churn out daily words in a reliable matter, I’m lucky if I manage to put down 200 words in a week, let alone 960 per day.

Le Sigh.

What little time I find to write, I feel I should use it for actual novel writing, not blog posts. I also feel guilty for neglecting my fanfictions. I want to finish those stories, damnit!


Enough with the whining, I just wanted to post a life sign. I’ll be over here, muddling along.

So, how are we doing?

I’ve asked this before and I’m asking it again.
The first month of the new year is almost over and I fell like I need the world to just please stop for a few hours to let me catch up!! Please! I seem to be running and running but in the end I have nothing to show for what I even did.
I know I’m neglecting this blog. I spend more time on tumblr, I feel more at home there. Tumblr has a wonderful book and writer community and I love reblogging interesting posts. I almost wanted to do the same here, since wordpress also has the reblog feature but it feels kind of false here.

This blog is meant for posts that I write myself. At least that was the plan. I wanted to write at least one post per week for the blog but I also wanted to write 960 words every day and you have three guesses how well that went and two don’t count. So, I’m just going to scrap this month and start over in February.


To answer the question: I’m doing fine but the new year stresses me and except for one tiny little piece of fanfiction, I haven’t written any stories. This is bad because I feel like that magical story thread is slipping through my fingers and is lost forever.